I'm going to be ok.

Texas was exactly what I needed. I have been back for one week and already the difference is immense. I can't even explain it. It was a life changing, perhaps saving, experience.

I credit the most drastic changes to someone I met while down there. He helped me realize that I would be ok. That there are other people out there who will like me and love me for who I am. The relationship we developed in just a few short days is priceless. He helped me more than he will probably ever understand.

Thank you my dear sweet trucker.

Also, while in Texas I was introduced to Dwight Yoakam. I now am obsessed. Hearing his music makes my soul smile... perhaps it's because it reminds me of the fabulous time I had in TX, or maybe it reminds me of Trucker. Either way, it takes me to a happy place.

I finally know I'll be ok.


Some Dwight Yoakam: Turn it On, Turn it Up, Turn Me Loose

Well I'm back again for another night

Of trying to break free from this sadness that I can't lay to rest

This old honky-tonk sure does feel like home

And the music with the laughter seems to soothe my loneliness

So turn it on, turn it up, turn me loose

From her memory that's driving me lonely, crazy and blue

It helps me forget her so the louder the better

Hey mister, turn it on, turn it up, turn me loose

Now if a tear should fall, if I should whisper her name

To some stranger I'm holdin while we're dancing to an old Buck Owens song

I know she won't mind, she won't even know

'cause she'll be dancing with a memory crying teardrops of her own

So turn it on, turn it up, turn me loose

From her memory that's driving me lonely, crazy and blue

It helps me forget her so the louder the better

Hey mister, turn it on, turn it up, turn me loose

So turn it on, turn it up, turn me loose

From her memory that's driving me lonely, crazy and blue

It helps me forget her so the louder the better

Hey mister, turn it on, turn it up, turn me loose

Yeah mister, turn it on, turn it up, turn me loose